THIS IS HARD………….
Hi…Thanks for offering your thoughts on my problem. I have only had this for such a short time and I really havent even come to grips with this. I was widowed almost 3 years ago and since then my life has been downhill. I came back to Canada from Holland
because I really hated it there. I was doing ok until about 3 months ago. I have always remembered some of this but always kept it away from me.
Since this has happened I have had so many terrible memories and flashbacks come to me. I will not talk about the details because I cannot talk very well about it yet without panicking. Anyway I was physically, mentally and sexually abused for pretty well all my life from my Dad and my husband. So many things that I somehow managed to block out are driving me a little nutty now. I have the same nightmare almost every single night about the last time my husband violently raped me and tried to kill me.
I can barely handle life day to day and have almost managed to try to overdose myself on Paxil not long ago.I thank god I didnt
succeed.
I am working so hard at counselling and getting myself together here. My doctor, an md , thinks the counselling is making me worse and I should quit and just forget about it and get a life. I have very little trust in her any more. Everytime I go in there I come out with something new. On top of the anitdepressants I also have sleeping pills and tranquilizers. She just hands it out and then asks me if I am suicidal.
Anyway this is long enough and kind of difficult to write for me.
Take care all, thinking of you…
Jackie
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Hi Jackie… I know that must have been hard for
you to write, but I’m glad you did. It gives a little
more insight into you and how you are feeling.
I’m
going to suggest you find a new doctor, if possible,
preferably a psychiatrist who can understand your state of
mind AND be able to prescribe your medication. The
fact that your doctor tells you to “just get over it”
shows that she has little training and/or little desire
to deal with emotional difficulties in patients. You
need someone who will listen and help you work through
your pain.
If you would like, there is another club
I think you might benefit from. I’m founder of
Emotional Abuse Victims and I think you would find a lot of
supportive people there. Please join us.
hi, Jackie, and welcome. I agree with everything
Cerulean said, especially about your doctor; I’m sure it
was difficult to write your last post, too.
if you could find some kind of medical referral [from a
friend or some other doctor], that might help you find a
compassionate m.d. to work with faster than just the usual
hit-and-miss method [the one I'm familiar with!].
best wishes,
Rick